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moving on for now
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Hello

Thank you lord for a sound sleep. It was a while coming and a tad bit of planning, but it worked and only because you allowed it. The tips were very helpful, but boy was I tired. I still woke up at 4:00, but at least I feel refreshed at this point ! :) I might be staying up, but not becuase I don't want to go to bed. Thank you Lord for answering my prayers.

Sometimes you have to pray and not faint. Sometimes I forget that he knows what he's doing and all I have to do is trust that everything will be ok . I couldn't sleep, again ... because I had a lot on my mind. I was just praying to God for peace and comfort. I was waiting on something instant, but instead I should just trust him more in the interim between when I know he will answer my prayers. Thankfully, I read my bible during that time, which always seems to calm my Spirit and renew my faith in him. Thank you Lord for being able to read  Your Word in peace and learn more about You and continue to seek Your word. I appreciate it.

I'm sort of fearful of being seen as a religious fanatic. I need prayer about being more upfront about how I would like to deepen my relationship with God and the consequences of shedding an old lifestyle. I am apprehending the changes that choosing the Lord will slowly but surely have in my life, especially with friends.

I am thankful for the people that surround me that love me and continue to give me advice to steer me in the right direction. I am grateful to the Lord that through many of my mistakes, the outcome still ended up being blessed by the Lord.

I am grateful for change that can happen and that although change is hard to deal with for me. Change can be for the good.

I am thankful to begin to find my passion in racial relations in the Lord.

Amen and Hallelujah.

I sorta have a lot on my mind right now. I am so thankful for an outlet. But don't worry, i never put too much information on here that it's like telling all my business. but i can vent a little bit and clear my head.

I think many people are excited about now to be heading back to Kalamazoo. I think the sports people will all be there by monday for fall. It seems so exciting. I am happy that I will be at Kalamazoo early for something and there before the firstyears !!:)

It's just really crazy how so mnay people are counting down until K and that makes me happy to know that I am sorta not alone, lol . it makes me happy to know other people are happy.

I am proud of myself practicing spanish

I finally feel content relationally .
But now, not so much religiously ...

idk  have any decisions i'm ready to make
thats proabably apart of my acceptance ...
that it is going to take some time
i need to continue to ask myself questions
and try to find answers

it's just that in the meantime ...
ugh .
part of me, again . knows what needs to be done . but how to resist temptations are another story
perhaps i should check my trusty bible and pray for guidance.

yeah, i know what i'm doing
it just helps to type it out most of the time .

BREAK ,

hello,

i've been so moody lately.
im trying to appreciate the nothing of home
but boy is it hard
ive deleted my to-do list
and now im just trying to do what i want since I have more time
alright,

the eend
my patience is wearing

I just made the greatest realization
I need to make new friends in my hometown.
I've never been close friends with people from high school now that i have amazing friends in college.
now i have a comparison of how great friendships that i've never had
i know, it sounds like a sad, sad story .
but hey, it's just been my life . never sad . just life.
ANYWAYS,

i've realized that I don't really have many people to hang out with while at home and some of the options I have I don't even know them that well. They aren't my true friends for whatever reason. That is fine. I just don't have a solid group of friends. That is fine. It is just interesting to realize that I need to meet different people and I don't think I've ever had wanted to meet new people in such a non-organized place. It's differnt to want to meet new people at school because there are limits. In a big city, how is that possible. I obviously need something to do to meet people. But honestly, there is no need because I head home so soon.

I've just never really thought about my friends in long beach to this extent. It's interesting and great. If I feel that way, it's nice to know that I can always make a change in my life. With effort, like trying to meet a boyfriend. not comparable. not that you need friends, but i def don't need a boyfriend:)

This may seem trivial or stupid or whatever to you. But that's ok . You know every person has there own thing. You proabably know from experience that apparently but not really seemingly .

I hope you catch my drift.